I is for......INDESCRIBABLE! Back on April 6th, 2008 I wrote this post. I said, "Some time in the next 18 months, hopefully sooner, we will be parents. Wow! I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. God and my husband have been with me through it all. I have overcome a lot of pain and I am stronger for it."
Little did I know that "K" was already pregnant and in about 6 weeks we would get "the call." I would only wait 6 months from being active in the pool to holding my son in my arms.
I also wrote, "Our little one is out there somewhere and we are waiting... praying... waiting.... praying... waiting... praying... waiting... praying. Thank you God for all of our blessings. We are so happy and hopeful about the future."
My feelings then were so raw and I cried at the drop of a hat. It certainly didn't change when I finally had Samuel in my arms, but now it feels...INDESCRIBABLE! I have wanted this as long as I can remember. This is part that was missing....part of who I was meant to be. The pain I felt over not being able to conceive is completely gone...the hole is filled...the emptiness is gone.
I have an amazing husband and my dear son! I am a mommy! My family is complete! God is so good!