My train is off the tracks.......

It's 3:10 A.M. and I've been awake for about an hour, "thinking." Usually it's students and school responsibilities that stress my mind and keep me awake, but this time it's Sam. Need to get thoughts out of head so I can sleep....I don't think I can make this post make sense, so I'll just write as my train of thought goes........off the track...here we go........

......I need to get a haircut before Sam comes...she's across town and I'm not putting a baby through that trip...Lord knows when I'll get another....I need a baby album...I'll probably get one for the shower...

.....It never even dawned on me to invite Richard's mom, step-mother and sister (they live in CA).....will they see it as a slight if they are not invited or as a plea for another gift....ask Richard in morning....

......Should I move the rocking chair in the living room or just buy another one...

.....I need to put all Sam's stuff out about a month early to get used to it being around and for the animals to smell it....

.....Does the Diaper Genie thing make sense or should I just go with a trash can...it will be a pain to empty the smaller one so often ...maybe a trash can is better...

......I need to go through the pantry and give extra food to church so there is room to Sam's food and supplies...speaking of which ...I should probably go through all the cabinets, closets, etc...and make room for Sam's "stuff"...

......Call financial advisor guy to put Sam on life insurance...hhmmm ask about AIG...not doing well in markets...

......Buy shed to get stuff out of garage to make more room....

......Move chair, stool and knick knacks...make room for pac-n-play, bouncy seat and activity center....

.....Call Bob about handy man stuff needing to get done in November before Sam comes....

......Should I hire a good cleaning service for November to give the house a really good cleaning before Sam arrives?

.....Put a note on doorbell about "napping baby, please knock."

.....Talk to Genie (sister)...we usually do Thanksgiving here and Xmas dinner there...should we switch...do something different this year...I'd rather not tote Sam all the way across town when he's only a few days old....

.....Find pediatrician....when are parenting classes with agency....when does he get circumsized....baptisted....call church????

.....Classroom plans for six weeks I'm out...January and 2 weeks in February....get extra crib to Mary Lou's.

......"K" allergic to dairy....use soy or rice based formula...have heard soy is bad for boy babies too much estrogen....???

......God, calm my brain....relax my nerves......it will all be ok......I smile as I reread this...doesn't make much sense, but it makes me happy too....I'll finally be a "mama." Ok, now I'm tearing up....time to go back to bed.........