I am actually very thankful for the time...I feel I have become a much more "patient" person (although I still have a long way to go). I am ok with where we are and the path ahead of us. I am excited and nervous, but feel prepared and good about the future. Richard and I have done a lot of evaluating of ourselves, what we want out of life and how we want to raise our kids.
At first, I definitely wanted to do a CLOSED ADOPTION. This will be MY baby and I don't want anyone else nosing their way in...(Boy, did I sound selfish or what!). Then I heard God whisper, "Ahem...pardon me....I think it's My baby and I'm letting you raise him/her." After that I started to change my attitude. My husband is adopted (closed adoption) and although his (adopted) mom and dad are his heroes and he has never wanted to even search out his birth parents, he still has questions about them. The thought of open adoption has become less scary now. I think God has put all of this on my heart and this is the way He wants it to be. I know God has a plan and it will all work out the way He intends. He will give me all the strength I need to get through it.
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Amen! Well said, Tracey!
God Bless,
Amy:)
Once getting past the fear of someone intruding on your baby's life, I can see the positives to having an open adoption. Though I do not know the specifics, I would think it would give the child, like your husband, the opportunity IF the child desired to seek out those answers to questions.
Congratulations on the completion of your home study! I'm so glad all went well for you!! I was the same way about the books and the dust...SO very nervous, but after the fact I realized how silly all that stress was. I'm so excited for you though, how amazing it will be to be active soon!!
I fell like you just walked in my shoes! I've felt all those very same things!
I can imagine an open adoption being scary and I'm certainly no adoption expert but I have a cousin who had an adopted daughter and a neighbor who has 3 adopted children all done through open adoptions and they both have had wonderful experiences.
I hope you find your child...or maybe I should say I hope your child finds YOU....soon!
Good for you. I am actually still pretty nervous about my home study - even though I know it's silly to feel that way. And I, too, am getting more at ease with the idea of open adoption.
Oh, Tracey...another step closer! I am excited for you and Richard.
Before we even began I told my husband I wanted to do international adoption because the idea of the birth mother made me so insecure and scared me. Eventually we decided to pursue domestic, and I did a lot of soul searching. It may sound simplistic, but I realized that I'm able to love more than one peron, 2 grandmothers, 1 mother and 1 MIL, etc. so why wouldn't my child be able to love two mothers? Me and her first mother. Yup, I had my own personal epiphany (ha ha)
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